Nanna, always there.
I remember;
Holidays in Wales on caravan sites and bungalows, walks on the beach, swimming in the sea, eating ice cream, watching the buzzards with Grandad, that little lamb being born and you being there to share and care.
I remember,
The hard times growing up, the complications, the confusion and you being there to help and support.
I remember,
Becoming a teenager, being young, foolish, independent, stubborn and you being there to mediate and talk to.
I remember,
Becoming a wife, learning to share with another, to agree and disagree, fight and make friends, and you being there to set the example.
I remember,
The childless years, the longing, the yearning, the disappointments, the heartbreak and you being there to cuddle and give me the strength to carry on.
I remember,
Becoming a mum, a family of my own, a whole new set of rules, and you being there becoming a great grandmother, a rock, and somewhere to cry when times got so tough.
I remember,
Struggling along and sometimes getting lost, and you being there always ready to help and get me back on track.
I remember,
When we found out you were ill and there was no going back, soon filled with dread of what the months to come would hold for you, and you being there ready to fight and take what you wanted from this world before saying goodnight.
Through all of this one thing has always remained … you were always there.
Now you have passed on, returned to Grandad in the glory of heaven.
My memories yet to be created now have an empty space, but your spirit will always live on in my heart. I know you will be with us, watching over us. Your presence will keep us warm and safe and I know when I need you, I just have to close my eyes, remember, and you will be there.
Night, night Nanna, I love you. Donna xx
Donna
23rd April 2008